It's never too late, 愛してるわ ♥

What I want is simple.

2011-10-28T00:46:00.001+08:00

If you ever realized,

2011-10-27T02:52:00.001+08:00

I.NEED.A.FULL.TIME.JOB.VERY.BADLY!!

Sigh.

2011-10-08T22:18:00.001+08:00

Hate being ignored, hate kena knife ):
Maybe I'm just too irritating.

Random of myself. (:

Hearts

2011-09-26T20:37:00.001+08:00

Off tomorrow ^.^
Happygirl92. Wed and thurs wisma afternoon shift. Friday, sat and sun & Monday *I think* tamp ! kinda shag cos fri work morning -.-
Okay. I'm quite used to working at Shu cos gg two months also Liao. So used to where th stuffs is, prices and purposes. :x but jiu Bo
Motivation leh. Plus other brands pay very tempting ): my com kan pathetic. 1% nia ): I think my Coms for this month less then 50 -.- sian manymany half.
But love working at tamp ((:
Cos of th people there. Sadly, Tammy Bo work Liao. Hopefully she will be able to be stationed at tamp for ettusais! Then I got kaki to eat and smoke le. Haha.

Ettusais pay attractive !!
Weekday 7, weekend 10. Commission 2%. Like shiok sial! ): shall see how things goes. Hehes. Gonna sleep whole day tmr. 

Below shows fatgirl92!

My love for you has never crashed,

2011-09-23T19:17:00.001+08:00

Dread going work tomorrow again. Rahs.
Something is totally wrong with me.
Okay. Now I hope that I'll work more next month cos I need th money seriously.
I wanna work hard for next month if let's say I can successfully carry on working la :x
Okay. Whatever it is, jiayou! (:
*today so positive, tomorrow confirm rabak!*

One random pic! (:
Okay. I feel like drinking tonight also. Haha.

2011-09-23T02:22:00.001+08:00

Hope my bill next month won't exceed 62. ):
I sibei scare my SMS will burst sial. Rahhs.
If only every single one in my contact gt whatsapp jiu won't burst for sure. (:

im running out of excuses to talk to you.

2011-09-22T04:54:00.001+08:00

I just wanna know th importance of me in your heart.
Before, present and future.
Where will I be standing as always.
Even if you can't answer me on where I stands in th future, let me know where I stand in th past and present at th very least will you?

It's just nothing else

2011-09-22T04:50:00.001+08:00

I don't need you to promise me anything.
I just want you to be there whenever I'm down, whenever I need a shoulder to lean on, whenever I'm tired, whenever I need someone to just pat me on my head and say 'everything's gonna be alright, silly'
I just want you to be th very first one to comfort me.
Even if you can't, let me feel that you'll always be there mentally, will you?

I wonder

2011-09-22T00:38:00.001+08:00

What will happen to me two years down th road.

You'll never understand how

2011-09-22T00:22:00.001+08:00

If only I didn't, I wouldn't be what I'm now.

2011-09-21T01:46:00.001+08:00

Tired ):
Met Gan yesterday (:
Okay. Kinda enjoy slacking with just him alone.
Can share whatever troubles I've with him etc.
Hope this friendship will last as always. (:

Th black one is quite long ago one. Lol.

Life's a bitch.

2011-09-20T00:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes , I just wished that I can control my mind. I hate myself ttm Srsly.

2011-09-18T23:31:00.001+08:00

First one is nth to do at work.
Second one is nothing to do at cue room outside!

I wanna learn how to draw beautiful makeups for others and myself. ):

I know I'm never alone.

2011-09-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

Mummy went genting without me again ):
She kns. Ask me go back just to takecare Sebas and scare he forget take allowance ):
I seriously don't feel like working at my current job again. Wtf is fucking wrong with me sial. ):
Everything is supposingly to be okay but fuck. Grr.
I guess it's my sales skill not good enough yet.
Must start bucking up like seriously.
Gave work a miss again today.

Went v3 followed by club nana yesterday.
Saw Jeffery at nana. Surprisingly he still so call know it's me. Lol. Maybe Facebook picture too obvious.
Rahhs.

I want go genting!
I want faster get my pathetic pay ):
Whatever!
☺

Look up th sky when you miss me

2011-09-12T02:04:00.000+08:00

Work at tamp tmr again! Morning shift. Rahs!
I miss chu sai sial. Srsly. In another words, extra income also :x
I
Miss
Th
Old
Me
,
Th
Old
Life
.

most importantly, th old us.

2011-09-08T18:02:00.002+08:00

我们背对背拥抱。

2011-09-08T18:01:00.000+08:00

Just when I tot today will be a better day, after lunch No sales all th way ):

-after 4-4plus
Got 1 sisters came. They reserved something ytd so let another yalam por serve cos ytd another yalam reserved de. So it's her sales.
Talk cock to her sister all th way. Endup she also buy 2 item but from me! $300. (:
Happy die cos talk alot cock with her. And thanks to her I hit 1.2k today.
But still didn't hit target. Target was 1.7k. ): crazy targets.
So, today is a very good day! Hhehehes. For th first time, I ended work with a smile.
Gave her my number too cos she want come take some sample from me :x I shall be a lil generous :x opps. Thou it's not allow la. :x
Happy happy happy. Okay. Hopefully tomorrow at wisma won't spoil my whole entire working mood again. (:

开心开心开心！！！
Hehehes! ❤
☺

2011-09-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

You'll never know how much you mean to me.

2011-09-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'M tired. Very tired. Only sleep for 4 hours this morning.
But! I don't feel like sleeping leh.
But the. Again! I've to sleep cos must reach work at 9.40 latest tmr. ):
By right is 9.30 but Bo bring punch card so an Tao Kai a lil. Hehes
Tired tired!

Shall go smoke and try to shyt.
After that is try to sleep :x

有你就好...

2011-09-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

Rahhs! Work's fine today (:
Okay, things with that yalam okay Liao. Much happier.
Hopefully she won't be a hypocrite or backstab me behind :x
Working at tamp tomorrow! Might be meeting my dearest ahgan tmr.
Lol. Hope tomorrow's private sales, I'll have good sales.
At least TM de sales much much better then wisma's isetan.
Hoho. Jiayou for tomorrow! (:

我可以做到的！
Okay, I a lil sot. Suddenly machiam so enthu. :x
But well, must enthu abit. If not go work confirm kan sian

Anw, I guess drinking will be cancelled this weekend.

My condolences.
节哀顺变。 *hopefully I didn't spell wrong*

2011-09-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

No money no money no money!
I'm
Fucking
In
Need
If
Money
.
Really
Need
To
Find
Fast
Cash
Job
I
Think
!
):

2011-09-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

Went for a fucking short run. I'm getting fatter like seriously.
But fuck my determination ): run for barely 200m and no strength to run Liao.
Keep stopping. Z. Guess I don't even run for 600m in total.
Whatthefuck sial. Argh. No way I can be slimmer but fatter.
Really gonna start stop eating after 8. Rahhs.
Jiayoujiayou!!!!!

即使我在笑也不代表我很开心

2011-09-05T03:38:00.002+08:00

Mc-ing tmr. Total no feel to work.
Cb. Stupid yalam. Don't even understand what I say -.-
You're that fucker which calculated my pay wrongly. Dumbass.
I havent even fucking receive any. Dumb fuck.

Ok. Think I work what also buey sai one.
Similanjiao! I should really look for a rich husband and marry myself off and become one bug fat yellow face woman. Sick and tired.

Went th lord last last friday. and went th lord and sensation last Friday.
Lord de guitarist when on top like not bad leh. But near near see jiu not nice alr ):
Talk cock with him :x too bad he too old, arbo can fin new boyf. Lololol.
Well well, might be drinking this coming Friday also. Teehees.
Thai disco ftw ~! 酒量 drop like fuck. ):
I'm so gonna train it back man!
Anyway, don't like sensation thou th girls there much prettier but th lord got more feel. (:
Miss th old jaydee & Burberry ): gonna try mbk next time. Never go before.
I wanna go every thai dis in Singapore and all clubs :x

And results of not drinking for too long is throat irritation up till today.

I'm gonna start looking for new job.
If they Bo terminate me, most probably gonna quit after this month. :x
I can never don't work. Sian half.

2011-09-04T18:56:00.001+08:00

Hate working hate working hate working. Argh.
Can't accept th fact that colleagues are all so realistic.
Im sick and tired of working. Fuck.
How am I gonna survive.
Should really start looking for for a rich husband and just at home be yellow face woman.

2011-09-04T02:48:00.001+08:00

Not enough sleep de cough starts again.
3days of off machiam no off. Semoniaosial.
I'm tired but I don't feel like sleeping again.
Feel like LAN-ing but sure kena kp. ):

Don't feel like working again. Argh.
But whatever ibsaid now, as long as I'm not late and gt wakeup go work confirm th dw go work feeling gone. Diaodiao.

2011-09-03T18:14:00.003+08:00

2011-09-03T17:45:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I just miss you a lil too much without realizing what I'm thinking.

2011-08-30T22:24:00.002+08:00

我一点都不好

2011-08-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

Randomly feel like typing things :x
It's been around 3 weeks ever since I've start working as a 'beauty stylist'
Lol. Come to think of it, it's totally weird that I'll work this kind of job.
So not me. But well, new experience. Overall is okay but idk whether I'll be able to work for long anot also ):
Still, old habit hard die.

Family problems? A lil bit.
I seriously have no idea what my dad gonna do.
Just seriously hope he won't gamble alr.
Come to think of it, if he didn't gamble, I'll be a lil rich girl now.
More then 100k have been taken from granny to him.
Hopefully he really wakeup this time round. Kinda worried bout him.
Hais. 40+ alr, simi also dk. How to find job.
Plus help others work, he confirm cmi one ):
I must really really grow up and think.
Been saying it for quite some time but Bo action.
That's so typical of me.
Tomorrow off ^^
Think gonna be very shag for th next 1 week plus.
Popi time fly past fast fast.

Headache now. Sian. Watch show and sleep later alr. (:

2011-07-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

Life sucks to th maximum recently. I think I can no longer trust any friends around this area. Fuck those people seriously. They come to you hen they need something/quarrel with someone else but eh, many other te? No call or whatsoever shyt. Seriously, fuckyou. I don't need any friends around here anymore. You come here you got all those advantages, fuck, no way I'm letting you get them so much again. I'm seriously rather afraid that you'll endup being th number two her. But what's th point. I'll just keep quiet and won't tell you as much as I do before.

Friends, i've a few wonderful ones around. Njq will always be there thou she tmd attitude me at times and stuffs but she's always there when I need her. I miss gan they all seriously. I felt as thou I'm th extra one now. But who cares. I enjoyed being with them slacking.

I enjoyed th moments whereby just buying a cup of big gulp and we can sit at th playground whole night long talking nonsense having happy laughter.

Where's those wonderful times? I miss you very badly.
Life's not that great, I made a fucking mess out of my fucking life.

You'll always be th reason

2011-07-23T05:18:00.000+08:00

Wide awake again. Okay, maybe nit really that wide.
Having a second round of interview on Monday at somerset!
Wonder what th outcome will be. Seriously, I'm sick of working life thou I didn't really have much 'experience' if that's what you call.
Im just getting so sick if every single thing.
Fuck those shyt okay. I'm like getting more and more pessimistic towards life sial.
Zzz.

I've realized something about myself.
I've always said something until very very nice but at th very end, I still crawl back and find/look into th Topic umpteen times.
Lol. Hazel tan uh hazel tan. When can you stop being a nuisance and learn to treasureufe more?
Tsks. Hardly/never I guess.
What's th point, what's th point/ what's th point! Nothing's gonna change.
Words will just be words, action speaks louder then words.
Ill do all those things that I've said one day when I've finally choose to face th reality.
Cheers.

Time to sleep.
More and more pimple and eyebag getting worst.
Gosh.

Miss th old good times. (:

2011-07-22T01:04:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep. Zzz.

._.

Happy birthday.

Old habit hard die

2011-07-19T05:31:00.001+08:00

I'm supposed to be sleeping but I just cabt seems to.
What th fuck is this. I'm actually using phone to type this.
._. fuck this shyt.

Received a call from someone from dk where.
Hopefully I'll recieve calls for th next two days too.

And seriously, one blink of eyes, I've actually rot for two weeks alr.
I'm supposed to receive at least 500 at th end of this month but fuck.
I'm not gonna receive anything. Seriously, I should really work out.
Lazy habit, fuckyou seriously. When then I can get rid of you?
I seriously wanna get rid of you. I swear I'm gonna work hard.
But on th other hand, I'm not too sure if I'm able to do it anot.
Fuckyou, fuckyou, fuckyou! -.-

Three more days.

i thought we're meant to be

2011-07-18T02:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it's just human being themself who choose not to forget and remember/holding on.

Sometimes you know you shouldn't be persistent but you just can't help being.

Just totally represent how some feel at times.

In some situation, rain can really be icy cold.

I'm learning too.

We promised to be together till old.

Remembered th very first time?

永远都会是你。。

It never fails to bring tears to my eyes.

There's so much i wish to say, i wish to do

2011-07-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

hah. so now i officially quitted my job and i'm jobless again.
whatthefuck is this. my life is kinda screwed up again now.
i tendered for th sake of th expo john lil sales and now they didnt call me.
fuck them seriously. ccb.

In life, alot of things don't happen th way you want/wish it'll.
Sometimes when things is already going according to th way you want/wish for, you screwed it like how you always used th screwdriver.
Human are always contradictive like how i've always contradicted myself.
I said this but actually i want that.
I said no but actually i mean yes.
I say i want but actually i'm very reluctant to.

I ain't getting any better.
Th scar still hurts alot, very much.
I'm not showing myself, no one knows.
who can i tell it to? Only some passer-by who saw this will know.
But so what? you know what i'm writting, you don't know th story, you don't know how it feels like.
I sucks. i sucks totally as a human. fuck me, yeah. i should die in hell totally.

Life isn't about th amount of breaths you take, it's about th moments that take your breaths away.

Four more days.

You'll always be my valentine

2011-06-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

Half an hour late for work today, again.
TPE jam, bobian.
Had maggie for lunch ;D
Okay, today sucks like totally ):
no mood plus nose killing me. argh.
Might be meeting vanessa to see ziyi's lil.long later.
Might be uh. a lil lazy to go.
Don't feel like going back bedok later too.
But dad's advanced birthday celebration so bobian.
i wonder, when then is time for dad to meet D.
hmmm. we shall see.

Hpy, surprisingly you still reads my blog/know i got this blog.
lol. don't be too sad okay. he'll be fine and you'll be able to see him soon also.
Cheers. miss you ehs. ;D

And i realised, D have never left my side before ever since we got together.
Everything/everywhere we go is together. Be it Malaysia during new year period, out to enjoy etc.
How cute everything can be. i'm a lucky fella. (:

You simply walk away

2011-06-09T16:10:00.000+08:00

Rainrain! Late today = cab to work. 18 fly :x
okay, i had a HEAVY lunch today.
Didn't go over to tampines mall there cos lazy.
Ate cup noodle and Carol dabao nasi lemak for me. >.<
Ate two meals for lunch. Now burp still got th smell.
Not gonna eat dinner tonight. Guess straight knockout.
Dad smart uh. Morning call him, first him he say is,
Comfirm late for work again. Endup he at airport.
kns.

Gonna be home for dinner tomorrow, i guess. :x

Ocassionally, there is.
But i'm trying my very best to ignore it. (:

561 561 561

2011-06-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

15 more minutes baby ! teehees.
Okay. skipped work yesterday because ! IT'S FUCKING RAINING !
& Th room is like damn fucking comfy, make me totally just wanna nua thou i'm awake.
Didn't manage to get back to sleep after D's off to work.
Nua and nua till 10 + and went mrt find liangzeena.
Goldstorage to buy butter and sugar. Went back and make cheesecake!
Okay, its nice and easy. hoho. i also know how to make cheesecake alr :x
Gonna try making it myself next time. hehs.
i very good girl. pack th room with th help of her.
Nua, bath, cab to yishun polyclinic and then they say damn full -.-
Walk to 900+ there de clinic. expensive sial, 40 X.X but hope th med is good for her.
Met D at Northpoint foodcourt. Had my favourite tomyam mini steamboat ;DD
Caught Kungfu Panda 2 @ gv. DAMN NICE ! cos cute.
i wanna catch alot of other movies. :x

Supposed to eat maggie for lunch endup lazy, don't feel like eating.
Ask auntie buy fish beehoon soup. okay.
mai gong liao. gonna pack desk if not third warning come alr.

I think

2011-06-03T12:28:00.000+08:00

Went Ikea & Courts yesterday.
First time eating at th 'foodcourt', feels so ahhai.
Bought a bolster & pillow @ 25 for both. ;D
Gonna try sleeping on it when i get home later on.

Zeena & Deric came over, had supper @ A & A with them & D's parents.
D's dad jitao hyper. veryverylame.

Lan with Deric & Bi till 6 plus, home bath and work.
super duper tired. i swear i want to rest well this weekend. -.-

Th whole picture seems awkard but i can understand somehow.
You're his brother, his girlf did something so badly you definitely won't forgive.
I admit my mistakes, i know i've done something fucking bitchy.
The reason why i ask her to say is because i want you guys to know to what extend your brother can go to.
I feel kinda ashame to face you actually.

One of th greatest mistakes i've made in my 19 years of was to be complicated with J even thou i'm attached to D. This big wound can never be heal nor forgiven.
I expected whatever outcomes to come when i decided to say it out alr.
But seriously, fuck everything.

And, to you.
You seriously ruin my life fucking badly.
You make me feel like a bitch, a whore, a slut.
YOU MAKES ME FEEL CHEAP. _!_

Sometimes ..

2011-06-02T16:11:00.003+08:00

There are 6 billion people in the world, Why are u letting one ruin your life?

You think I'm happy but I'm really not, my smile must be the best lie that I've got.

Took half day today.
Super tired. Okay, actually im awake just practically lazy and then, half day lo.
Meet Zeena & Deric @ Mrt then went home and bath yesterday.
717 for dinner and back home to slack initially endup mahjong with them & D's dad.
Zeena went off @ like 10.30? Stop for awhile, nua at bed.
D's back, Jiayee came then mahjong till like 2 plus.
Initial plan was not to sleep and go lan BUT! endup sleep. -.-
GG. Gonna hear naggings tomorrow again! grr.
Might be going home for dinner tomorrow D:

Ikea later. hehehehes.

Sorry if my words are hurtful but its time things really have to change.

You're just a nobody, you're just an ex, you're just my memories.

You're one of th most beautiful love i once had but you've became th worst nightmare.

Th most unforgettable and memoriable nightmare.

We know what are we.

You know how important you once used to be.

Your very last text/entry, hurt me to th very fucking much.

This is what you cause me to be. I'm sorry.

Even if there's a chance somehow, somewhere, someday ...

I sincerely wish you all th best and hope that we can be friends someday;

thou i know its never gonna happen.

neither will i dream of it to happen

But, i still hopes so.

JustinYong, 070308

Goodbye once and for all.

My once dearest great love.

Shopshop! hees.

555

2011-06-01T11:30:00.001+08:00

"See there's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me."

Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love.

Love of yours, its sound tells me that you're concerned about me.
That hand of yours that touches my forhead during the days when I'm unwell.

Every scene, every episode, they never fade away even though they had passed by however long ago.
And every scene, every episode, that kept emphasising the thing that I became since losing you.

That I am a stupid person, more so than anyone else, having had true love but was unable to take care of it ..

Got to know it's value but then it's too late, broken-hearted, however much I thought of reverting the story, I'm able but only to dream.
Stick our picture, which was torn apart, back together.

Because every scene, every episode, they never fade away even though they had passed by however long ago.
And every scene, every episode, that kept emphasising the thing that I became since losing you.

Tell me a little, just where there will be a door for me to revert to the nights and days,

that I had you; I'll take a good care of you, once again...
I am that stupid person, more so than anyone else, having had true love but was unable to take care of it.
Got to know it's value but then it's too late, broken-hearted, however much I thought of reverting the story, I'm able but only to dream.
รักแท้ดูแลไม่ได้

Hai June,

2011-06-01T11:05:00.000+08:00

Got my wedges or whatever its called @ centrepoint yesterday!
Met polarbear at somerset, dinner and went to give surprise! hehes.
Polarbear went off and bi's 50 bucks richer. 100 split between him and mike.
Slackslack walkwalk while waiting for time to past.
Zeena & Deric came to go back together.

Super tired this morning. ):
iie.wannchh.t0.d0.manii.peddii !

- i want to buy clothes =O
- i need to pay bills *200 fly*
- i need to give mummy 200. ):

deducting bills & wanna give mummy one left 500 liddat -.-
GG.com.sg
argh.

Don't blame me for being cruel.
You turn me to be like this.
You're asking me something and you expect me to just answer you? C'mon, wakeup.
i'm not th old me who you attitude and i still can keep trying to make you dont sounds so attitude.
Jus ans me. hah, JOKE.
So what if its something i owe you?
i know you'll be seeing this.
If you thinks that i'm bullshyting, by all means.
Fucker. _!_
DON'T FORGET, I'M A HYPOCRITICAL MATERIALISTIC BITCH. ^.^

553

2011-05-30T12:34:00.000+08:00

weekends past like whoooo ~
Fucking fast. Feel as thou i didn't get enough sleep ):
Cab to work this morning ! :x miss th bus.
I'm super hungry now >.< But idk what to eat.
Lazy go eat also )))): sian ttvm.
Supposed to go bugis and meet mummy during th weekends BUT !
Lazy. Think she miss me too much also.
LOL. played mahjong yesterday night !
Won total around 16? Supposed to be more ! ):
Sadgirl92. lol.

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Too much things

2011-05-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

I wanted things to stay the same, but people change, feelings fade away, and priorities change ..
i super like this sentence.
Many times in life, things always happen when you least expected them.
What to do? i think for me, its to always expect th unexpected.

Life's soso now.
Super tired in th morning nowadays.
Reached workplace = lazy ttm ):
i'm seriously wondering if i should look for other jobs instead.
Seriously i'm sick and tired of being a 'loner'.
i don't know who to trust and stuffs & am real afraid of backstabbers again.
Had enough of all those, well karma coming back. bobian.
but still. hais.
too much things to settle. ):
really can only walk one step see one step.
want study also dk what course, want work admin leh, also no future.
TMD. blame myself. -.-

As time goes by,

2011-05-24T10:41:00.000+08:00

Super duper tired to th very max.
Day two of my 7th week @ work.
Pay is coming in and there's so much things i wanna do/have to do.
Pay bills, give mummy money, get myself a bag and idk what alr.
After deducting th bills and giving mummy, i'm left with only 600 liddat.
): so little money, so many things wanna do.
Thought of going either sentosa/bukit timah with that few monkeys but!
Don't know if really doing so. :x
See, i chut stunt again. lol. Old habit hard die. -.-

Went bata yesterday and got my sport shoes. hmmm.
Really gonna start running =O
Seriously, i'm really getting rounder and rounder -.-
Gosh. bo bian, good eat, good sleep. And stomach, tmd erxin ):
See my body shape, hating it more and more >.< but well, clothes can cover but whatever.
I want my old size at th very least without th 'obvious' fats showing out!

Sometimes, i really wish for time to rewind back to banquet time.
At least i'm much more hardworking there and i got no time to think about other things.
Living life as per normal thou i'm only earning less then 1k there but well, time fly fast.
Take Crowne Plaza for example, i can work there for like more then 12 hours a day?
Just 1 lunch / dinner, turnover and there, relax already !
Plus midnight got cab back ! :x
But too much bad memories there, so well.
i miss th colleagues there too. And! I'm like being pampered when rumadan is around.
I miss th fun i have there la. Grrrrr.
Stupid asshole. why go there work. -.-
All thanks to mummy for intro-ing him there. nabeyyyyys !

But thats life.
No matter how much you miss/wants something, life still goes on.
(:

Its never ever gonna be th same.

2011-05-23T12:22:00.000+08:00

Many things happened for within a short period of time.
It seems to be long but actual fact, its just a short period.
I decided to be honest this time round towards relationship.
To be honest, i'm surprised that i actually have th courage to come clean and say things out.
Like whatthfuck. and yeah, glad that th outcome is totally opposite of what i thought it would be.
I'm not gonna be stray and i swear i'm just gonna focused and not lose everything that i've build up.
If it were to be broke down, i swear i'm not gonna let th one who break it off.
But actually it depends too. I'm not a good girlf neither am i a good daughter.
I've never do th things that i'm supposed to do for th past 19 years in my life.
But this time round, i wanna change, i wanna growup, i wanna behave like a grownup instead of being th immature kiddo you used to see.
I'll try my very best. i wanna stop hurting innocent parties.
I want my mum to be proud of me, i want her to stop worrying for me.
I want to be a useful girl, i don't wanna be idl-ing like how i used to be.
I wanna be a good girlf, i don't wanna be hurting my boyf over and over again.
I'm learning how to totally let go of someone, a guy that used to be my everything.
So far so good, i guess i'm near there. Part of th reason is, i have someone who truly loves me being by my side now. I'm sorry but i think i made th correct choice and i'm glad that i've choose this path.

I thought i'm gonna lose everything that i build up 4 days back when i decided to be honest and come clean to D regarding what i've done behind his back.
I'm glad that he forgave me and things between us didn't change at all.
I'm still like how some girls are envious of. I'm still living like at his house like how i used to be.
He still treats me like how he treats me as always. NOTHING changed at all and i'm totally shocked.

As always, i tend to looked back most of th time and tend to she bu de alot of things but seriously, i came to realised that there's no point doing so. Like there's no point in dragging something that you know there won't be any outcome or there won't be any changes.

Sweet talks are lies, talk is cheap.
What are words if you really don't mean them and whats th point of saying them.
I came to realised how true this two sentence can be.
I used to say alot of things and i'm honestly admitting that all that i've done have been just words and yeah, no actions is showed. Actions speaks louder then words. Yes it is. I'm gonna do my very best and mean whatever i said from now on *except to those i have not important*.

I'm not gonna say anything to protect/defend myself anymore.
I feel guilty for hurting someone who treats me so freaking nice and more then happy to be forgiven.
I'm gonna do whatever i can to make you feel secured.
I'll cherish my one and only last chance.
22nd's ♥

Time seriously don't wait.

2011-05-18T16:58:00.003+08:00

6 th week @ work.
thats pretty fast.
seriously hope that i'll be able to stay long in this job.
1.4k just need to pickup calls, send mails, do others relax job, where to find?
It's time i really must start thinking bout my future. (:
So far so good, be it work, life, family.
Stupid phone batt used up like kinda fast ):
and money used up fast too. Grr.
Gss coming somemore = next pay confirm gg.
Seriously must start being serious !
Super lazy to wakeup in th morning + feel like skipping work ):
Hoho, at least for th first time in my 19 years (having a full time job) i skipped like once? took urgent leave 1 time only ! ;DD
Love public holidays ttm. loving my life now because this is th kind of job i've looking for (excluding th job scope!) Five days week,9-6/8-5.30. at least i get to enjoy myself during weekends. ((:
Feel like finding part-time but seriously thinks that i cant manage my time with it. well, rest on weekends is needed very badly :x

Some might feel that if two is really in love, they should not be bothered bout other factors but in life, being together/marriage is not just about th two being in love. There's other factors that have to be faced and yeah, thou when two love ones are together, they can overcome any other factors just to be together. You'll have to think about what th other party is thinking and how she feel ..

2011-05-16T10:36:00.004+08:00

There's always too many things in life that you can't bear to let go but as time past by, you'll come to realised that no matter how much unwilling-ness there is, you've not no other choice but to let go.
Overall, thats life, its part and parcel of life and its a one whole circle process.
You can never understand another person well enough because i believe you don't even understands yourself very clearly. sometimes its better to let go when you feel that the other party all th whole process is hurting you too much. whats th point of letting yourself suffer everything knowing that th whole process is gonna hurt you very much too? whats th point of holding on to something that's useless?
what's th point of letting every single one of your friends calling you a fool and you know they will be congratulating you when they know that you've finally walk out of th cave.

On th other hand, don't always assume things from your point of view.
sometimes in life, you should always look out of th big picture.
Remember that everything happens for a reason. You might not feel/think like how th other party tells you to but sometimes it is like how th other party said. Put yourself in another point of view and you might have another picture in your mind. think about how he/she will feel if he/she realised that you dont even understands her right from th very start. don't fucking assume from your point of view.
Just remember clearly that every single things happens for a reason. (:

Random.

2011-05-16T10:19:00.004+08:00

18 months, its time for me to totally let go of you.
So what if you do pop-out at times?
So what if tears just roll down whenever i think of you occassionally, randomly?
no matter how much unwilling-ness there is, still. (:
You're once my everything,
You're once my world,
you're once th one and only which i loved th most.
you're once like a diamond that every woman in th world likes,
you're once th one and only in my heart,
you're once th one that i'll do all sorts of things just to make you pampered me more.
But now, you're just nothing. nothing but maybe memories and my ex.
i wasn't being understanding, i cant forgive you for th mistakes you made thou yes, you forgave me alot of times before.
i thought i can but i can't. i've a changed of heart and i'm sorry.
i'm being a total bitch yeah, i know.
the only guilt i've is being together with D three day after we broke off.
kinda fuckup, i know, but thats th fact that we cant change.
i've choose to leave you 18 months back for another guy and i'm not gonna come back.
Maybe they are right, there's always a reason why they are called ex.
It hurts alot whenever you pop-out in my mind. i wouldn't deny.
but after so many things and so much that happened, i'm letting go totally alr.
(:

It takes time, time will heal all those wounds that we gave each other.
live life to th fullest cos you'll never know what's gonna happen next.
cherish everyone around you. cherish your girlf & i'll definitely cherish mine. (:

~~Goodbye my best friend.~~

i feel as thou i'm being stabbed over and over again in th middle.

That hurts, and im going to be strong.

2011-03-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

Woots. Birthday coming but seriously gt no plans and dint wish to think bout it. Just another day I guess.

Things is just beyond my control no matter how much I wish to.

2010-09-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

Spent 1 hour liddat to edit this together. ><

Gonna go tpy with mummy later on. hehes.
then might be going back yishun alr ~ (:

i miss you.

2010-09-12T18:35:00.000+08:00

Z ttm. totally can't stand th way grandma nags.
nb. that's th damn reason idwanna come back home.
i seriously cannot stand it. zzz. fuckup.
imagine for th whole damn weekends, everyday 7AM bei chao qi lai.
knn. fucking shag can. then have to hear her naggings all day long.
zzz. had war with grandma just now. too buey tahan alr. if not i also wont blast.
kuku. plus its so fucking hot here can. zzz.
whatever. fuck all this.
there's problems everywhere, every now and then. gosh.

whatever.

2010-09-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Love this song ttm. (Y)

Forever ♥.

2010-09-11T16:29:00.001+08:00

rot rot and more rotting.
imma practically rotting myself @ home.
i totally got no plans on what i should do about my future.
yeah, and i mean no plans. whatever.
fuck this whole shyt.

shag ttm.

whatever it is,
You'll never ever be replaced by anyone.
What i want is just you. (:

2010-09-10T08:54:00.000+08:00

Your happy lil.girl, forever i'll be.
i just wanna enjoy being with you. ♥

September 10, 2010.
Selamat Hari Raya. (:

You're all that I ever needed,

2010-09-03T04:50:00.001+08:00

我还记得我们的约定，
一辈子幸福的约定。

我从来没有忘记过。
你还记得吗？

Life's a dick.
Screw everything, screw life, screw you.

Bayy-beeeeee's love. (:
cherished, etched.

2010-08-10T16:35:00.002+08:00

A boy is planning to ask her girlfriend her hand for marriage.
Being her usual self, she was asked by the guy,
“Will you marry me?”

The girl just laughed, looked at the guy and said.
“Are you crazy? All i ever wanted to is to marry Spongebob.”

Disappointed, he looked at the girl and cried.
The girl seeing his tears, wiped them and asked.
“Would you be my Spongebob?”

Randoms.

2010-08-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

imma @ work now. slacking to be precise. :x
free like no other motherfucker.

yesterday = national day.
last year of this day? hmmmm.
so much memories flow back.
crying during ndp's prewiew, crying while watching our tetra performances.
i miss th past more than i love myself.

Take very good care of yourself please.

2010-06-04T02:49:00.000+08:00

Lalalalalaa !
♥'s sleeping right now!
Enjoyed today thou it's like what we did everyday.
Had our dinner & went LAN ~
loves leeching exp TTM man.
♥'s like so fucking cute can!
哈哈哈！不要jealous了啦！
I'll try to faster level then let you leech ohkay?
Hehs. His face is like so damn mother fucking cute!
And I had a good laugh just before he sleep. (:

Baby,
that's th kind of life that I want with you.
I wanna be nagging at you everytime before you sleep.
Irritate you like there's no ending.
Wahahaha. Well, I'm your irritating girlfriend what.
Heh.

You defines happiness, eternity & love.
I believe in you & us.
我爱你！♥

22nd's th love

2010-06-01T02:21:00.001+08:00

♥'s sleeping right now & imma watching cartoon network ;D
it's been a long long time since I watch CN canszxzx!
& it's powerpuff girls now! Lololol!

Enjoyed last week de long weekend alot!
Both son bring their lappy over to joanne's place.
Started playing maple with baby few days back. (:
neglected blackshot. Lol. Audi rot already also!
SMDxZell ♥ SMDxJunn !
Hehs.

Been fucking leong! Grrr.
I want workworkwork!
Job hunting again tommorrow with joanne!

15 more days to baby's ORD!
Yeah man!
Anticipating yo!

I wanna hold on to you tight.♥
Refusing to let go till th very last ;
Treasuring th best gift that's given to me by god.
One & only DexterKohBangJun. ♥

Tired.

2010-05-21T03:32:00.002+08:00

imma @ joanne's place now!
baby's on cab coming to fetch me home. hoho.
meeting tangtang to chambers tmr morning.
going ngjueqi's chalet on sat.
sunday going out with tangtang & clique cos his birthday?
no idea too. fucking broke. grrr.
damn chui la.

k, bye.

Time flies especially fast when we're enjoying it.

2010-04-22T06:41:00.000+08:00

I wokeup very randomly. D:
had some dream regarding band life and lim was still th conductor in my dream.
Theres still like a month more before school starts.
All those stupid dreams. How i wish they're real man.

Baby's being damn sweet canscxzxzxzc!
Well, at least to me he is.
He wokeup, ask me lie on his legs and said happy 5 months.
Haha. Silly baby! I kinda dont remember cos its still quite early. :x
sorry eh.

Okay, BabyD!
Happy 5th monthsary!
Time seriously flies and now we're together for five month.
Thou th duration is short, it feel as thou we're togetger for quite some time.
Thanks for all showering me with all those love and pamper me like a lil girl.
Lotsa things happened but we're still together.
No matter what, i'll learn to cherish you & us.
I promise you that u'll do/try my best to fufill what i've said to you.
Baby, you've really changed alot and thanks for doing that.
I want you to be happy okay!
And know what, we'be been together for 5 months means i've been staying here for five months too!
Haha! Thou there're times whereby i dont wish to see you but at th end of th day, i cant wait to fly over to see you if im at bedok at it happens a few time right?! (:
Once again,
Happy 5th Monthsary my dearest silly lil boy.
i love you baby.

2010-04-19T17:53:00.000+08:00

imma @ Joanne's place.
she's sleeping. LOL. im bored. -.-
waiting for two idiots to bookout and go over to chongpang.
played 6 & half rounds of mahjong during sat night.
aizai right? laughs. th longest i've ever played man.
"work" for more then 10 hours endup still have to pay.
LMFAOs. rawrs.
gonna go back bedok tomorrow or th day after. ;D

2010-04-18T05:15:00.000+08:00

imma using iphone to update.
went to tpy with babyD & sziyi in th afternoon and listen some kuku talks.
waste of time.

played mahjong and well, this two dayd totally not my luck man.
lost nearly 40 ytd nd 10+ gone today. =.=
guess just so not my luck ba.

Baby!
i'm sorry for everything thats happening now adays.
& i know i seems to have changed into another person.
im really sorry.
i believe we will be back to what we used to be soon right?
thats what i hoped and i guess you too.

It's th 6th month that i know you today.
i love you my dearest lil baby & i mean it.

your's,
Lil girl.

2010-04-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

i'm @ th verge of breaking up & letting you go to find a better girl.
idk if it'll be a right decision or whatsoever but well, i'll if things turn really nasty.
my words just now very harsh but i guess i mean it.
i just wanna have some privacy of my own.
just leave me alone at times can?
i did thought of leaving just now and i almost did.
whatever.

screw everything.

2010-04-06T02:27:00.000+08:00

Smiles no matter what happen yo.
{♥}

Running,

2010-04-06T02:23:00.002+08:00

Blahblahblah.
Chambers for blackshot. (:
met my dearest Qiumin just now. like finally.
hope everything's okay with her & her boyf.

Too much things happened, too much things to say.
Sorry baby. For being such a bad girlf.
& well, no matter what happens, please be happy.
MUST not forget th promises you made to me yeah.

Did consider all th things deeply but seriously, i still don't have an answer.
it sucks to see everything going on as per normal but deep down, we both know theres someting going on and that couldn't be solve or cover easily.
Let me hide for awhile during this period of time can?
i don't wish to face th fact and th reality.
well, i'm doing that everyday. Living in that lalaland. hah.
Whatever it is, i'm sorry for causing you so much misery.
Don't shed another drop of tears again anymore alright?
Life still goes on, you still have to keep breathing.
whatever i wanna say, i guess you already know so shall not repeat. (:
& i'm still sorry.

meeting qiumin on wednesday again i guess.
to look for job. (:

J, i'm sorry.
Do remember what you said to me and i hope you can do it eh. (:

SUPER FUCKUP. _!_

2010-02-05T17:57:00.000+08:00

had conflicts with baby yesterday @ workplace.
went back to bedok find mummy.
accompany her shop shop and bought heels :x
i love my mummy ttm.
went back home pack bed and stuffs.
CBK come back and had a lil arguements with dad bcos of him. _!_
cab back to yishun. thanks baby, for comforting me.
& i'm sorry yeah.

super fuckup.
wanna get pay also like so hard.
grrrrr. no offence.

going back home soon lu.
mahjong later i guess.
and i think no more malaysia trip also cb dad keep my passport.
i wanna go shop shop with mummy. ):

2010-02-04T14:12:00.000+08:00

random.
working @ soulout now,
new year is approaching, valentine's approaching.
wondering whats gonna happen.
i wanna go malaysia. D:
going to make passport on sat i think? D:

i miss NGJUEQI !

2010-01-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

imma @ soulout now. (:
outside watching phobia 2. making a random post.
Have not been meeting my dearest NgJueQi nowadays.
managed to meet her for kbox on last friday or saturday.
surprised to know that anthony & cindy know each other.
LOLs. babe, meet you soon again alright? (:

Love my dearest baby.
Thanks for every single thing.
Though there's some disagreements and arguements, we're still ohkay right? heh.
i promise i'll do my very best to forget.
you're th silly baby that i'll never bear to hurt.
i love you. (:

& all th best for your india training.
takecare my friend. (:

2010-01-11T13:31:00.003+08:00

那一年默默无言只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是
放弃你放弃爱放弃的梦被打碎
忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是
忘了你忘了爱尽全力忘记我们
真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
那一年默默无言只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是
放弃你放弃爱放弃的梦被打碎
忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是
忘了你忘了爱尽全力忘记我们
真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
喔~~~~~~~喔
我难过的是
放弃你放弃爱放弃的梦被打碎
忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是
忘了你忘了爱尽全力忘记我们
真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
我难过的是
放弃你放弃爱放弃的梦被打碎
忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是
忘了你忘了爱尽全力忘记我们
真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来

老公公

2010-01-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

It sebas's birthday ! (:
gonna be home for steamboat tomorrow ! ;D
went for interview just now, well, guess its good yeah.
enjoyed being @ baby's place.
played mahjong with them yesterday.
Bi's dad is a real joker man. laugh my arse out.
and he helped me play yesterday. lol.
love bi's family. feel so home.
went downstairs to eat lunch with bi's dad before going out too just now.
his dad's treat. lol.

okay, a brand new year. cheers.
wish things will work out with him yeah.
baby, love you loads yeah.
you marks my day without fail everyday. ;D

2009-12-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

My eyes hurts ! D:
@ sjb now with baby, bao & gin.
Waiting for th stupid audi to patch. kns.
patch till almost done then cannot. zz.

Christmas eve went back to bedok.
Went home first and then to inter with mummy and sebas.
took 45 from mummy and she help me topup phone.
heh. mummy's fucking cute i tell you. haha.
Love die her. (:
ate dinner together. Bi, how's my mum?
LOL. he says that she's cool. ;D
i love my mummy okay !
bus-ed to hougang and meet Junrong slack awhile then bus-ed to kovan.
played lan. cab to hougang meet mama, yan and yolanda.
cab to Oasis after that. Bloody hell, got operation. ):
went in by th back door together with baby.
Only managed to drink a glass cos its unsafe to drink. ):
Cab back to yishun at 3+. Thanks mama for spon-ing. ;D
bloody broke bodoh. Bi's papa cute bodoh.
laughs. say never buy turkey back. and disiaosiao.
they playing mahjong at home. disturb abit and fell asleep with baby.
forgot what i did le. :x

well, enjoyed myself with baby alot though didnt do much stuffs. (:
Blessed to have you by my side idiot.
Always being there for me and stuffs. Really happy.
Sorry that we did keep quarrel over him.
i'll try my best my dear.
i won't denied that i don't feel anything when i read his blog.
well, i've already choose you and i'm sure we'll work out rather well?
laughs. Everything will just remains as memories boy.
you know how i feel i guess.
lastly, i love you baby.

i wish you all th best.
Its a brand new year soon which means a brand new start.
Can see that you and her is working on well.
All th best yeah. And last long in your future relationship.
i'll always remember you.
(:

2009-12-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

Happy One Monthsary. (:
i love you silly.

2009-12-07T04:05:00.000+08:00

Baby & Melmel sleeping now. :x
Saw cockroach and i on th lights. Damn scary bodoh. ==.
Woke baby up and he say nevermind ask me don't care. z.

Went to NorthPoint for Teppenyaki with baby.
Supposed to be AMK hub but lazy so settle at northpoint.
Walking around after dinner. Thinking of entertainments endup decided to go for K.
Came back home to take jacket and slack awhile.
Bus-ed to AMK after that. Sang till 2+3? Supper at S11 and cabb-ed home.
Keep waking up in th middle of th night.
Vomited twice and diarrhea 6-7 times. =.=
woke baby up and somehow quarrel abit with him. :x
sorry baby. didnt mean to but was really feeling damn uncomfortable can.
endup he wakeup and pat me to bed.
Didn't managed to wakeup on time to chu shi. i'm so sorry babe.
Baby have been taking care of me for practically th whole day.
i've been sleeping for th whole day too. Bi fed me porridge, eat, smoke and sleep back. :x
Felt much better after eating th panadol and stuffs.
Wakeup at night and his dad cooked porridge. (: thanks.
Went down for a walk with baby. Brought something and had some talks with him.

Thanks baby for taking care of me.
Sorry for making you worried? Really happy yeah.
Love th way you pampered me and feed me and taking care of me.
Despite th fact that you're tired, you didn't take a rest b'cause you're afraid that i'll suddenly wakeup having a stomachache or wanting to vomit.
Touched by you huh. Thanks alot baby.
Though it isn't something big but it means alot to me.
i love you baby. (:

& its 07. Supposed to be 21st. (:

2009-12-05T14:18:00.002+08:00

Just got back to baby's place.
Went down to eat with baby and melmel.
Got screened by police. LOL. Nothing much also actually.
Mum mum half way suddenly rain. =.=
Accompany my baby to cut his hair. kinda funny la.
but still, loves. ;D

Make a trip to geylang last night.
Bus to tamp then bus to geylang. My dearest Vanessa board my bus.
Chatted with her on th bus. miss die her. :x
Went down to ShiGuan. stayed there till 11? then walk to 23 take train.
Sososososo far can. :x to me la.
Luckily baby pei me talk on phone. heeeeeees.
My sweetie baby came to fetch me at th station. ;D
Wanted to eat fries but they left abit so baby ordered fish and chip so that i got fries to mum.
hees.

{ Photos ~ }

Okay. finish with everything.
off-ed to accompany baby.
love you!

2009-12-04T18:12:00.000+08:00

I'm done with th changing of blogskin. ==.
wanted to use th plain one but can't change colour and fonts so forget it.
D's & Mel's out as usual. Gonna get my ass outta here soon.
Gonna go home change and stuffs.
Helping mummy buy cards also. kns.
Meeting baby at night again i supposed.
Laughs. I'm bored bored bored.

Went down for lunch with baby just now before he reports to camp.
Met my dearest Joyce honey yesterday under D's block and walked to Northpoint.
Slack there for awhile then went off already.

Okay.
Disturbed D yesterday despite knowing th fact that he dislike it when he's asleep.
Got attitude by him without him know. kns. HDY! Okokay, you know i'm kidding.
Was abit unhappy about it? And he wokeup he coax me. Ignored at th start but okay at th back.
i'm sorry baby. :x its my fault la. D:
LIL MONKEY IS FUCKING CUTE BODOH.
D mention that he's hungry and mel say he's too.
Actually he's not but when he heard D saying he's hungry, he feels hungry too.
Lazy us refuses to accompany him and that crazy monkey started entertaining himself with th zhuzhu followed by eeyore. Its fucking funny la. Ended up laughing for more then 15 minutes i supposed.
Endup mel go cook maggie with th zhuzhu. rawrs.
What a cute "son" i have. Love die him.
love die babyD too.

okay, gonna go home soon! ;D

Smiles Baby, smiles. (:

2009-12-03T01:38:00.004+08:00

D's sleeping now. making a short post. :x
went to yishun mrt there mee mel just now.
smoke and went to northpoint timezone.
Meet Gin, Bob, Andre, his gf, Deric, Xuange, Bao and deric's girl there.
mel went to meet his mum and we slack outside mac.
went off with D and mel back home.

Baby, i'm sorry.
Sorry for knowing that you don't like it yet i still did it.
i'll try my very best not to do it again alright?
Don't blame yourself okay.
(:

{ edited }

Honey woke me up. ><
Melmel still sleeping, i'm hungry.
laughs. i remember-ed something.
D's noob in putting on contact lens. laughs.
help him to put it on for fun yesterday. ;D
his lens is irritating him so i guess it time you get another pair instead of th current one.
& i still enjoy disturbing him when he's asleep. hoho.
good uh. never fa pi qi when i disturb. :x

Lastly, hope Elgin will be okay soon.
cheerup my dear son !

Might be meeting honey tonight if she's going yan's place.
yeah! miss die her eh. ;D

Falling deeper & deeper. ♥

2009-12-02T05:22:00.005+08:00

Okay. its 5+ now.
Dearest D's gonna be awake in like 2 hours time?
i'm gonna be all alone because Mel is going out to meet his girlfriend nd D will only be back at 6+. ):
hopefully Gin wakeup early? but i doubt so. nevermind.
i can't really sleep but will still try to.
laugh like a mad dog just now thanks to th two idiot.
D's th one who starts th ball rolling. ><
smack you uh.
Didn't laugh so madly for quite some time already.
& D's acting cute by saving his name as ♥许宝贝 in my phone. haha.

You do make a differences in my life. ♥

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Just wokeup. alone here now.
D's is fucking cute in th morning la. Th way he nua and refuses to wakeup.
And he wakeup randomly around 6+ saying ni bu yong shui jiao de uh in a rather fierce tone. D:
Slept after he left for work and wakeup to help mel open th door and back to sleep. z.

Went to Sun Plaza yesterday to play arcade. Kinda lame i know.
Back to AMK to buy my contact lens. Like finally la.
Cab to Kovan/Upper Serangoon for lan and Chong Pang for Nasi Lemak with Gin.
Stupid D make a stupid *idk how to name it* sound which consists of all those alien tone of his which literally cause me to laugh like one mad lady and couldn't stop laughing.
That explains why i say i'm like a mad dog.
Stomach and throat damn pain due to all those laughings.

Can't wait for next saturday!
Out, out, out.

Going back home tomorrow i guess.
Most probably. :x

2009-12-01T12:54:00.001+08:00

Had Mac for breakfast. D is sweet enough to come all th way back home because i didn't pickup his call and he don't know what i want. such a sweetie right? maybe not to others but he is to me. ♥
Ate while watching Hot Shot together with th lil monkeh & baby.
Accompanied D to TanTockSeng yesterday and back to Yishun to meet th two jiejie(s).
Had our dinner and went to void deck to slack.
Went to OCC yesterday for pool when perry came.
Didn't play much o. And i sucks at it la. zzz.
Back at D's place and knockout.

Baby !
Takecare of yourself la.
Silly you. Have more rest alright.
really damn sweet of you.
i feel so guilty that you everyday sleep so lil can. D:
waking you up soon. ;D
going out with him too. hoho.
Love die you ! ♥

& i can't change th fucking fonts. ==.

time pass damn slowly.

2009-11-30T17:49:00.002+08:00

Baby's in camp now.
he's sick, his phone gets terminate off and he's lock in his store.
baby, don't so moody or pissed off already alright.
look at things at th bright side. maybe its not your day at th moment but things will turn th other way round soon right?
i'm yearning to see you. faster come back!

My Love Will Get You Home.

2009-11-30T17:47:00.001+08:00

If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home

If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home

If you ever feel ashame
My love will get you home
If its only you to blame
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home

Things is going smoothly

2009-11-28T15:06:00.004+08:00

okay. i've just finished eating porridge cooked by baby's mummy.
not bad yo. watching Hot Shot and using th lappy now.
Handsome bodoh. heh.
i've been at yishun for many days already. D:
i wonder if baby & Mel will see me till bored already anot.
rawrs. i needa find a job asap.
meowmeow, faster recover then we can go work together.
heh.

went to causeway point with babyD and my lil monkey yesterday.
laughs. went to pasar malam walk walk then to xcraft to buy my nose stud. ;D
met Vinnie then went arcade followed by dinner at PastaMania.
nice okay. and babyD is superb! he likes what i likes too.
finally found one who share my taste eh.
love die you boy.
smoke & trained back to yishun.
took shutter bus to OCC * Orchid country club? for poooool!
got bullied. D: no la.
cab to mel's area, slack and cab back.
kinda enjoyed though.

baby, i'm sorry.
Sorry for not caring about how you'll feel and stuff, sorry for not being sensitive towards you.
i'll try my best to not to blunt out his name and stop saying about him to you.
overall, i'm really sorry.
thanks for standing by my side alright.
i appreciate every lil things that you've done for me.
there's no point in me saying much but well, i guess i've already said whatever i wanna say to you and i think you already know what i wanna say.
things that i posted is only how i feel at that moment and nothing much.
don't let it bother you alright?
i love you hunneh.
off-ed to accompany him! ;D

2009-11-24T13:14:00.003+08:00

mel just went out and i'm alone here. D:
waiting for babyD to be back.
he took half day for me today. awww. sweet neh!
and he's on his way back already. happy happy.
laughs. was supposed to go work but endup lazy.
D: gonna go take mc later.

this few days enjoy-ed myself very much.
thanks baby.

he's such a sweetie to actually come all th way to bedok to meet me despite knowing th fact that our destination is yishun.
went to shop for his bbq things on friday along with his friends.
back to his place to rest and sleep.
wokeup in th morning/afternoon, meet Deric at Chong Pang and went market.
smelly fishy smells. D:
Poor double D have to take turns and carry th heavy grocerys.
laughs. prepared th stuffs and slack at baby's place.
went for lunch and slowly his friends came.
was kinda wierd la. bath come out got so many people liao. ><
cab to pasir ris and walk-ed a very long distance can.
rawrs. saw nana there. like so coincident.
didn't expect her to be there and honey came.
miss die her. they left like 10+?
cycle them out and my slipper snap.
zzz. thanks to baby's friend i got slipper.
they went to kop for me. [:
ton there. was damn cold bodoh.
cab back home and bath and took a nap.
wakeup cab to hougang and back to yishun.
slept @ 2 plus, wokeup at 6+ prepared meet gin and cab to bugis.
steamboat = JingZhenGu parteh! ate alot of it la.
went park for cake smashing and its cute to see th brothers runing around.
laughs. i was lucky cos i didnt kena anything. hees.
back to yishun and went to work in th morning. [:

well, happy 20th birthday boy.
hope you've enjoyed yourself very much.
sorry for making you shag th whole night during bbq.
i'm not observant at all and i didn't know you mind.
thanks for th sweet messages that you've sent me.
it melts my heart alright. we'll let time proves everything.
thanks for being such an understanding boy.
i didn't expect us to be together but yes, we're now.
i love you baby.

and yeah. i guess i've lost my ring.
didn't have th time to actually go and find it cos i'm practically not at home this few days.
was damn moody when i can't find th ring.
tears came rolling down. idk why but yeah.
i want th ring back, yes i want. all th memories and stuffs.
so what if break already? i still wanna keep it as a memory.
thanks D for understanding it.

i'm so sorry i've choosen to hurt and leave you.
that incident plays a part but actually that can be left aside.
i don't like th way things is happening. i can't help feeling insecure.
i hate it when you keep using com and keep audi-ing.
you know what i want and i've said it to you before.
i wanted to give us a chance but i doubt i can do so.
i've absolutely no idea what you're thinking and what you want.
last night's message to you really puzzles me alot. but well, its th past now.
i'm very selfish this time round. i'm sorry.
i wished i could rewind time and go back to where we're before too.
i'm damn happy when i recieved th bracelet from you yes i'm.
you know, lil things like that can really make me happy like a lil kid.
i love moments like this but i'm scared of being hurt by you again.
th bracelet is spoilt, th ring is gone. i've no idea what it is implying.
i'm left with quite a number of things given from you but i can't really remember them.
thanks for everything that you've done and given me.
i've never regret know you and becoming your girlfriend before.
my same old words imply. take good care of yourself and its time to think and plan for your future. all th best to your future relationships and i believe you'll be happier.
time will heal everything and you'll walk out of all th sorrows sooner or later.
i hope at th very least, we'll still reminds as friends.
its time we learnt to adapt to a new life.
i miss you though. laughs.
takecare, loves.

D, thanks for staying by my side and being there for me.
i know i'm not supposed to be typing all this but its only how i feel. [:

Enjoying every single moment.

2009-11-24T00:59:00.004+08:00

i'm @ yishun now. D:
its 1 and i'm working at 7AM tomorrow which means i'll have to wakeup at 5am.
GG.com
went to meet VanessaNgJueQi for dinner at inter just now.
slack around library area. some things happen-ed and GohWeiMing came down.
glad that both of you are okay now.
don't think so much babe.
i'm just a call away my dear. love you.
babyD just cook-ed maggie & he is feeding me now.
sweet neh. hees. gonna enjoy-ed mum mum-ing.

i love you baby. (:

2009-11-21T12:49:00.001+08:00

Loves bangbang!

Right or wrong?

2009-11-20T22:54:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry.
& i wish you all th best.
take good care of yourself alright?
smoke less and spend your money wisely.
think carefully of what you wanna be.
i hope we can still be friends at th very least.
i didn't expect things to turn out this way but i guess it th best for both of us.
let time heal all th wounds and i hope you'll find a much better girl than me.
cheerup alright. smiles!
loves.

Happy 19 Birthday Yiqian!

2009-11-08T15:30:00.002+08:00

wokeup @ 2 plus.
was supposed to meet clements @ eunos mrt at 1.30 endup really lazy.
sorry dude. make you wakeup and bath for nothing. D:
gonna prepare and go for work real soon.
lazy bodoh. D:
i think i'll regret not going down to dk what garden for th sentosa thinggy. D:
but nemind ba. rawrs.
slack at reservoir with Vanessa & Anthony.
Anthony went back @ around 12 then waited for Weiming to cab from Old Street.
cab back to south and ate supper then back @ 172.
okay.
off-ed.
imma kinda shagged yo. D:

2009-11-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

wooooooooooooots! my phone is okay already!
laughs. was expecting it to be done like 3-4weeks later according to what th guy tells me.
went to east point to collect my phone just now. walk around and back to south.
wanted to go east coast with Van they all but that fucker refused to go. =.=
idk what th fuck is wrong with you la.
whatever. going over to reservoir to meet my dearest babe soon.
don't feel like staying here looking at you. ==.

Hesitated.

2009-11-07T13:17:00.002+08:00

i wanted to trust you and clear my doubts about you but what you've said and what i've found out turns me off totally. Yes. it's th past and what done cannot be undone.
But did you actually put yourself in my shoes? i know i'm stupid and i really don't know why i've choosen this path when theres muh better guys who will treat me much better then you.
Maybe its just that i can't let you go? But i'm totally surprised that you can actually go so far right within such a short period of time and its really fucking short. _!_
savings? bike? fuck you upside down la hor.
i can't trust you anymore. not anymore.
i tried to but you're th one who make me can't trust you.
i won't be surprised if one day i'm really gone.
i find no reasons to stay here anym0re now.

Thanks for letting me know what kind of person you are.
Friends called you a jerk, cb or any other thing, i used to disagree but i couldn't agree more now.

Fucker, remember, love isn't just a game. _!_

you makes me really pissed.
& its shattered. idk how to fixed it back.

To forgive and forget,

2009-11-07T02:32:00.002+08:00

well, Happy Twenty Monthsary.

i don't really feel that happy actually.
you've kidnapped my heart.

idk if i've really make a right choice.
bcos of you i've regretted something very much.
what done cannot be undone.
whatever it is, i'll just have to leave with it.

2009-11-05T22:02:00.001+08:00

as requested, it's removed.
i'm really sorry.
what a bitch i'm, i know.
thanks for everything though.
all th best in everything.
really feel damn bad & guilty.
i'm sorry.

2009-10-29T02:07:00.004+08:00

At Ngoh Ziyi's house with VanessaNgJueQi, HoYueTing & GohWeiMing now.
tottaly shagged due to work. rawrs.

hey,
You're such a fucker. _!_
idk to trust you or what but please.
how i wish i know what you're thinking now.
its like so what th fuck?
i'm trying my best ended up it seems so.. idk how to say.
not used huh? guess you're more used to saying that to her instead huh?
whatsoever. shall not be bother-ed or think about it anymore.
fuckup.
thanks alot guys.
mood really got better this few days.
love you babes seriously!

Three times in a day.

2009-10-25T18:51:00.004+08:00

idk what i want, idk anything.
that feeling sucks. its sucks to feel blank and empty.
i keep asking myself not to be waterfall but i couldn't control them.

to th silly you,
so what if you're penniless? you know i didn't bother about it at all.
know what? i was hoping that you'll hug me tightly yesterday when i went up.
i keep turning back hoping to see you but that didn't happen.
i really wanted to stay. i don't why i contradicted myself so much.
all thanks to you idiot. i thought i would smile instead but it didn't really happened.
i miss you alot, alot, alot.
i miss you saying goodnight to me.
i miss th hugs and kisses from you.
i miss hearing you say that you love me.
i miss talking to you.
i can't help thinking about you.
hey, i'm sorry bout all those fuckup attitudes i give to you.
i'm sorry for making a fuss out of nothing all th time.
i'm sorry for not being able to be understanding towards your needs.
i'm sorry for being a failure and your girlfriend.
i thought this is th right decision but i can't help thinking about you.
i've finally know how important you're to me.
i hate everything thats happening right now.
that feeling sucks.
i know i want you but i guess i won't ask you back.
boy, take good care of yourself alright?
again, plan more about your future. you know what i mean.
thankyou for tolerating with me for th past 19 months.
thankyou for being there not physically but mentally for me.
thankyou for cheering me up occasionally whenever i'm down.
thankyou for actually being my pillar of strength.
thanks alot for being my boyfriend.
i don't regret being with you.
i hope without me, you can find a better half.
be happy alright? smiles.
i'll takecare of myself.
so do you alright.
misses you dearly.
last but not least, i love you.
takecare, Justin.

i didn't know there will be so much heartaches and i can't bear to leave you.
i want you but i don't want you to be miserable anymore.
i enjoyed talking to you in th afternoon just now though we didn't talked much.
there's so much i wanted to say to you but i don't know how too.
i want you, yes i want you.
JustinYongChanHui. i miss you very much.
Chang tong Bu ru Duan tong.
i hope you'll be happy.
i wanted to ask you to stay but i don't dare.
i wanted to ask you to hold me tight but i'm afraid.
i'm afraid that things will remains th way it is and nothing will go well in th relationship again.
i really miss hugging you.
can i hug you one last time?
i don't think it'll happen.

i wanna be that happy lil girl in your eyes too

2009-10-17T03:07:00.003+08:00

just reach-ed bedok south.
16 hours(minus one hour break) of work today.
super tired. gonna be th same next week sunday too.
today's function, lunch & wedding dinner sucks to th max.
totally hate them. lunch is pickup,pickup&pickup.
dinner is starting chui, ending still okay.
first time doing wedding @ fullerton.
><

went to eunos cc and meet my babes yesterday.
cabb-ed to bedok 416 for dinner with babes along with jiajun.
food not too bad o.
i wanna go shopping!

should i pay my bills?
ximtia th money la.
& i wanna chiong work,but i'm tired.
seriously tired.

Really tired.

2009-10-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

yo! :x
home sweet home now. ;D
nothing much. have been working recently.
guess pay come also gg. lol.
bill 300 plus have to settle. fucking sian.

finally went to shiguan on saturday.
reach-ed there late, chang-ed and off to chu sai.
chu @ hougang there and i saw weilong; kitty.
lol. world so small and he bu ren de wo. so called him. [:
went to reservoir for late dinner.
up to anthony's place while waiting for VanessaNg and Taizi to bath.
i managed to went in 72! :x maybe next time can try go there?
haha. didn't see aloy there.
off to cine for movie.
watch-ed

find it not bad la.

might not be working on next week thurs and fri.
accompany-ing J to chalet?
no idea. [:

off-ed to surf net awhile then to lalaland. ;D

2009-10-10T14:12:00.003+08:00

WHATS TH POINT OF DOING THINGS AFTER I'VE SAID.
THIS IS NOT TH FUCKING FIRST TIME.
lots of me tells me that i hate you.
sometimes, i really dont wish to spend my fucking time on you anymore.
i can't help thinking what a fucker you are.
i hate you. i'm not gonna waste my fucking time being here anymore.
enjoy yourself using th com fucker.

2009-10-10T01:46:00.001+08:00

lazy to update anything.
fuck th cough and runny nose.
sick after so long. can't even remember when is th last time i'm sick.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-10-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Eighteen Birthday Haziq!
Takecare Ballerina Senior! ;D

Sorry baby

2009-10-07T01:42:00.000+08:00

Happy Nineteen Monthsary. ♥